Vacation has finally come (I hope) and instead of being all happy about it... here I am, sitting in front of the pc looking bored and well... trying to find something worth while to do. I admit I'm still tired from school, but just sitting and not doing anything is driving me crazy~!! I've read my own copy of TWILIGHT for the gazillionth time, played Pokemon firered on my visual boy, made letterings for some people, etc. but one thing's for sure. I'm DYING of boredom!

bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored

^^;; I gave up on watching Daa! Daa! Daa! at CR. It just doesn't load~ so I'm poking around the groups there. I stumbled on the VK group and I guess I found something to do~ ahaha... ^.^... I think it's time to show off the graphics I made again! lols

Recently Made Graphics

Raven Poster
I tried playing with PS CS2 for the first time ever and this is what came out. X_x the colors are messed up but~ hey! I'm learning aren't I?

Blood Notes Poster 2
XD.... this is the first GOOD poster I've everrrrr made~ though, mind you I did not create those green thinggies, I just rendered it. ;_; I did not steal it Ok? it was posted on a site that gave textures~

Raven Poster 2
So I got jealous~ why would Blood Notes (my sister's fic) have a better poster than what we both created???

Shou x Tora Set
XD... and so I'm fangirling over Alice Nine Fanservice. I definitely love Shou's fanservice stuffies~ ^_~ he's just too good at that! ahaha... this is the first banner I made using PS! (currently using in Soompi.com forums) btw, if anyone wants to use this I don't mind, just don't forget to credit~ XD

La Historia del Horror Poster
I made this poster for a required Spanish Play. It's actually a Horror/Comedy play and it was very hilarious! XD I'm glad I made that poster for it!

Wanna Know A Secret?... I'm in Love with You Poster
I made this for a friend's GM fan fiction. It's cute~ right? XD.... if you look closely... there's an evident mistake~

Blood Notes Character chart/Poster
This was meant to be a character chart but my sister decided it would make a great poster... so yep~

Nao Set
ahaha... I actually found it hard... making a Nao set. I'm too much of a perfectionist when Nao's involved! LOLS~ I LABSHU NAO!!! (currently being used in janime community forums) If anyone wants to use this~ feel free to do so. Just don't forget to credit me kay?

Raven CC
This graphic still isn't posted in soompi~ ^^;; I never imagined it would be that hard to make a Character Chart.

Hiroto Bulgari Black
This was made for the purpose of an advertisement project. I was supposed to use Shou but Hiroto's pose and the feeling his pic emitted was perfect for a simple ad.

Shou Diesel
XD... although the Bulgari ad was perfect, I wasn't really contented so I made another ad. This time I used Shou~ I knew I should've passed this one. XD

Hiroto Bulgari Blue
XD.... phew! erasing the kitty was hard~! ahaha

Ok, so I was supposed to make perfume ads for every Alice Nine member. I was planning to use the same brands they use, but Hiroto's profile says he doesn't use any perfume so I wasn't supposed to make one for him. >w< but his pics were perfect for the job and since the computer crashed when I was gathering other Alice Nine pics for Tora and Saga's ad.... I was limited to create 3 ads.

Yuri Character Poster
By request of Hitomi (the author and my sister) I made a character poster of Yuri. It's very simple and plain. <33 would you believe me if I said the roses used to be orange in color?

phew! that wasn't so hard was it? ahaha... I managed to kill a lot of time while posting the pics~ YAY! Oops~ I'm off to help Hitomi put the finishing touches to her newly made Raven Poster! YAY-ness!! She's now using PS CS2~ ^^ I'll try to advance to CS3. ^^;; I'll need help.

I strongly believe in the Chinese's yin and yang. And so, I am really worried about what'll happen to me in the next days where I know I will feel some sort of suffering to match what I'm feeling right now. I can't help but dread that it's about my failure at school.

I have two possible culprits for my hyperness... one is the book Twilight by Stephenie Meyer and the other is the Visual Kei band Alice Nine. =_=;; I know I've tried ignoring Alice Nine but I guess they're just too cute to resist for me. Ahaha... I've grown to love ALL the members but of course I have my favorites.

Last friday, I bought my reserved copy of Twilight. It was last, last week when I checked the bookstore and found out that they have new arrivals of the said book. I wanted to buy it then and there but my classmates stopped me, telling me I should buy it after the remedials (which I probably got all the answers wrong again). I sighed and gave in BUT I made sure I have one copy reserved despite what the lady working there said about the books being many. Anyways, I'm glad... I'm glad that I reserved one because when I came back this friday, the number of copies the book has had a very noticable decrease. There were only a few books left. After buying my copy I went to eat but I came back later for who-knows-what reason. (btw, during the whole time when I went to the bookstore, I was with Mami Erose and La Nads) And what's a bit funny to me was... when I came back, I checked on the number of books and then... there was one. Only one copy was left. -sigh- I'm so glad I reserved one copy. >_<... even if the whole book only lasted for less than a day with me. Anyways, I've been re-reading it again and I never seem to get tired of it. But... ahaha... as much as I want to buy the other 2 books to continue Edward and Bella's story... I guess I have to wait for some time because it's now Alice Nine's time to shine.

Alice Nine's new single, Mirror Ball will be out on March 26. And boy I was wrong for saying i won't buy it. I've never been an excessive buyer. Actually, I hardly buy anything at all. I usually just buy food and my money would be wasted in my tummy. So blame it to soompi's Alice Nine thread where someone gave this particular link,
http://web.pscompany.co.jp/alicenine/aquarianage/
Before anything else, I want to say I love Shou's make-up. ^^... especially on his eyes. So pretty! ahaha... so, back to business. I clicked it to check it out (well duh) and I regret it now. X3 well not really. There was a preview of the 3 covers and the pv and the music. I clicked the pv preview of course and BAM! It hit me square in the face. It was so good! ><... and I hated it for making me want to buy it! For days I argued with myself. Until last night I was still thinking it through. XD but I ended up pre-ordering the limited edition cover B and the Hello Dear Numbers tour limited edition. ;_; so much for my savings. ^^;; did I mention the price kills? like the tax? well, now you know. They kill. And that's probably the reason why I never buy online. But I'm at my edge now and Mami Erose said she'd help me since she's also ordering online. She said she'll pay for the shipment fee but I pay for the tax... soooo.... I ended up buying it. XD... well, I will buy it. On March 26, after 4 weeks of torturous saving.

I do admit I feel a little disappointed. Why? Because the regular edition of Mirror Ball has the prettiest cover... but if I buy it, I won't be able to get the DVD of the pv! Oh well. That's life. Life's unfair. And so I've experienced it.

All my life, I've never imagined myself buying with so much desire to have it. What more with buying online? Ahaha... I'm a bit dragging and this update is a little... not so worthy to read. And so I end this~ xD I wanna have a round 3 with reading Twilight!

^^;; I'm still being fangirly with Alice Nine, An Cafe and Golf-Mike. But now, I'm also fangirling with Kra and the Gazette's Reita! *dies*

For now this is my online celeb/anime family:

There's two new additions: Nao and Hiroto from Alice Nine! I'm planning to add Bou, Kanon and Reita. O.O... but I'm also thinking of letting go of some idols there. X___X J-rock is totally taking over mah life!

*poke* Just because they're there, it doesn't really mean I own them. =_= I'm a fangirl and what can you expect? Geez, some fangirls really have WILD imaginations thinking that they can own their idols. >< I love my idols! I LOVE THEM! But I don't own them! I'm a bit disappointed with one of the comments in my tag there. I study languages therefore I can understand what the Tagalog one says. Who are you to just barge in my blog and say those things to me? I'm really offended but I try to think that it's just because you're a crazed fangirl with lots of time. XD orrrr maybe you're just too young. I know I've also been like that in the past but it's really pointless to go all possessive with your idols because they don't really know you and you don't really know them. How can someone you've never really met face-to-face before be yours?

I've been trying to do some photoshopping too. But since I've jsut started... they're not THAT good.

This is a simple poster I made for my sister's fiction, Blood Notes. XD I've made trailers for it too! Anyone wanna see????

Linkie

I really like how I colored this one. XD though... it looks very simple and cute! This one is for the fan fiction my sister is reading~ X3 she said the writer really loved it so I'm really happy!

linkie

Poof! Actually I was supposed to post the feelings I had yesterday. X_X during and after the second Math11 Departmental Exam. I really have to say I'm frustrated and angry at myself for failing again. The first departmental exam wasn't what you could call pretty since I also failed it with a grade of 44%! T_T I really hate the fact that I spent a lot of my time in studying it only to fail it again.

^^;; I'm really time pressured right now so~~ I guess this is where I'll end my post. I shall return later! I still have to go to church!

>D... cheng you evil dude! Though I am a bit surprised it took them this long to actually find it. XDDDDDDDDD... it's written all over my friednster account! =_=;; anyways... now that people who know me personally have found this little bloggie of mine... I'm thinking of whether or not I should change my 'homepage'. O_o... maybe I should just post a livedoor?! Or Cyworld! XD no one will find me there! LOL!

^^;;... I gave up trying to find a new imagehost. I'll just use imageshack! -sigh -sigh- as for the other stuffs... I'll just use mediafire. >O... megaupload is a pain! I've started uploading the pics I've uploaded in imagehigh. It shouldn't take long before the pics are posted back up.

I need to reorganize this place! @.@... everything scattered everywhere. It'll take a lot of time before people can find the pics they want that aren't in the front page already.

And just for the heck of it... XD... here's my WHOLE FAMILY~

clickie to see the whole glory of it! XD... It's actually expanding but I'm too lazy to compilte it.

I've been reading and writing some fan/original fics lately. I've stopped visiting my fanfiction.net account because I just feel disappointed with what happened whenever I'm writing the continuation for Let It Rain. ><... what pisses me off more is that while I was browsing through the chapter summaries of A Little Too Late... I can't seem to remember what would happen next to it! Argghh!! I need to recollect my thoughts!

The following fics are posted ONLY in soompi forums. Only soompiers can read and review on it. Sorry~~~

This one is entitled Raven. It's a collaboration fanfic between my sister and me.

^^;;... she said she was gonna make a fanfiction blog so non-soompiers could also read it but up to now... she's not making any moves in creating the said blog. D= we're hopeless! (interested in knowing the story? leave a comment and your e-mail)

This one is an original fiction one-shot. It's entitled Love Train. =D... one of my longest and best works. (interested in knowing the story? leave a comment and your e-mail)

This one is my latest work. But the plot was created before Raven's plot was ever completed. It's entitled Heavenly Temptation.

This was originally named, "The waitress from hell" but momma Steph told me to change it. So.. vuela! It's now called Heavenly Temptation! (interested in knowing the story? leave a comment and your e-mail)

Oh and let's not forget my latest project!

I'm planning to release an original manga/fiction entitled "I Was A X-dresser". It will first be released as a fiction then I shall make it an online manga! ^^;;... I'm so ambitious aren't I? ^_^... I have mami Erose who volunteered to beta the fic~! As for the manga... I have my fine arts student sister who will help me with it. Problem is... I'm wondering... where should I post this? (Have a suggestion? leave a comment)

BELATED HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY PIRAT "MIKE" NITIPAISALKUL!!!! (12/19/07)

XD... ahaha... how dorky can he get? ^.^...but I love that dork!! O_o... he drew a mustache and a beard on his face~~~

Thanks to the rise of Alice Nine... my sister (including me) has been obssessing over Jrock bands more.

And I'm currently falling in love with the genre of... (see pic below)

^^;;... I really have nothing to do! hmm hmm... actually... I have a lot of things to do! Study, review, do my homework, finish the group report and etc etc!

But, after reading a wonderous fanfiction written by one of the most amazing writers one could ever find, I've decided to write this post in commemoration of the most loved Jung Yoona a.k.a. shooting star of soompi.com forums.

I did not know her writings. Nor was I given a chance to meet this extraordinary person. And just when one has thought that life couldn't get worse, one finds out that he/she has missed an opportunity to meet someone as light and cheerful as her.

I am not being a hyporcrite for saying such things about her even if I did not personally know her. Her writings and the messages left by the people who knew her was enough for me to get a glimpse of how much of a great person she was.

Many times when I encounter such times like this, I often wonder to myself, why are those people who's lives have been limited, more cheerful and optimistic compared to those blessed with long lives and perfect health.

Did you guys know? I posted my newest fan fiction on Soompi.com forums today, hoping that people would like it and appreciate how hard I've worked for it. But after reading her fan fiction, "Her Name Was Han Sarang" I suddenly felt as if my writing was a miniscule spec of dust in comparison to her great work. I felt so little while reading every single page of it, slowly witnessing her greatness through the words of her loved ones and friends. Her courageousness to write about her life, her hardships, sufferings and little thoughts took more than what I could ever give in a story I am writing.

As I read the story, I could not help but feel teary-eyed, but it was not because of what you think. My tears, they were for me, I felt so left out, to not even have the slightest chance to meet and at least have a quick chat with her. Those readers who were able to praise her for her wondorous works when she was still alive were so lucky beyond all words.

I'm guilty as charged. I admit that I am jealous. Jealous because Yoona was able to bring out her real feelings and write so beautifully despite her condition. While I am neither capable nor do I have the courage to write about something so delicate. But that jealousy does not end there. I admit, that I am jealous of the many good qualities she had. I am nothing like her. She is pure, happy and strong. Rest assured that my jealousy is not a bad thing. Yoona has now inspired me to be a better writer, and a better friend. Her radiance shine with the little notes she has left for the readers who's supporting her with her last story.

May Yoona live forever in the person of Han Sarang. Rest in peace. I dedicate the song "Insa" to her.

Fly away Yoona-sshi...

I do not know what lies ahead for the departed...

I do not know whether you are able to see this or not...

I do not know if there is a better place...

But, what I do know is that, if we could've met, we would've been friends...

So fly away...

Let your bright personality and wondorous thoughts remain with us...

forever.

^^... after spending my last day of the Sem-Break sitting in front of the computer, I've decided to do something else besides re-reading all 57 chapters of SUICIDE NOTE posted on Soompi.com forums. I snooped around different forums that has Golf-Mike trying to find more info and of course, more pics.

I landed right into AsianFanatics Forum where there is a 7 page Golf-Mike thread. Neat! I got to learn more about them and about Thai culture. So staying over in a guy's house is a no-no? aww... and so... Golf and Mike do not have girl classmates then? x)... YAY!! lol... I am so darn weird and obsessive.

WoOt~! So P'Golf does have a gf now? =3... what about P'Mike then? haha... in one interview, P'Mike says P'Golf is a player! But I kinda feel sad for Mike... he seems to feel inferior (I'm not implying he does, but that's just what I felt while I was reading the interview). Aww... P'Mike... genki dashite! ^^... be confident in what you can do. I certainly don't mind if you stay quiet for the whole day. Just be yourself and people will naturally like you for who you are! Believe in yourself and have self-esteem! And P'Golf, don't be sad with some bad comments some people leave on the net.

reading on... I found out that they lip-sync? And they don't do perfs that much? I don't know if I should believe that stuff since the person who said that isn't a GM fan. But I'm just curious.

RANT PART:

Anyways, while I was skimming the thread... I think I was on page 6 at that time, I got a bit saddened by some members who posted in that thread just to say that their music sucked. >_>... Ok, so you can't please everyone. But why is it that people like butting in convos in which they aren't even wanted. I mean, if you don't like something, why waste your time professing your un-dying hatred for whatever the issue is? It's just not logical. I asked my sister about that and she said, "Those people have a lot of time in their hands." I wonder how would those people feel if they were in a thread of some artist they like and some random member comes in and says their music sucked or how about some random person comes in and says in your face... the thing you did sucked, you suck and blah blah blah. Basically, if you don't want it, don't come near it. Why waste your money buying concerts then? Geez... those people must not only have lots of time, they also have lots of money! >_>... I wish I was that rich. Why can't people just stay out of it? I mean, I also have artists I don't like. But I never went to the extent to say it in a place where only the fans of those artists hang out. Sure I rant to my sister how much I don't like this,that, etc. but, really... can't they just BUTT OUT? I'm totally pissed off.

x(... and did you know that imeem is being a pain? I can't visit it. It always says, the page cannot be displayed!

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Anyhoots... I'm still poking around Google hoping to find something. *stretches* haish... I wish my validation e-mail for GM thailand comes! ^^... I want to learn more about Golf and Mike! (Well... leaning more on the Mike part of course!)

I love Mike~! I've always had since I first saw him. And even though there are many reasons to go to Golf, I still love Mike more. Everything about Mike... is perfect for me. Whatever his flaws are... only adds to his perfection in my eyes.

\(^O^)/... I'll be rooting for Golf-Mike always even if my dad doesn't want me to!

Anyways, I can't give up can't I? This is my blog after all. Ok, so back to what this post is supposed to be about.

Finally! My mom and I finally finished watching the first installment of the Endless Love series. My mom has developed a serious crush with the actor who played Yoon Jun Su. ^^;;… I'm very forgetful so I cannot remember his name without looking it up at wikipedia. But, since I am nearly at my boiling point because of this (*&^*& computer… I won't look it up anymore.

I loved the story so much. It was very sad and tragic. It was something; no man could ever go through. And if it happened in real life, I would totally give my respects to the 2 people who have been deprived of their love for each other. Know something? This story portrays the things I hate about humans. The first was Shin Ae's jealousy for Eun Su and for being such an ingrate to the mother that raised her, who gave her the best she could. Second was Jun Su's father for always thinking ONLY about the people who are in their bloodline. He always disregarded Eun Su's feelings or what might happen to her if he does this and that. Third was Yumi's clingy-ness. She knew she never had a chance. She knew who he liked. And she knew she could never make him happy. She disregarded Jun Su's happiness for hers. She didn't care about him one bit. I hated it when she asked Jun Su to not forget her "sincere" love for him. Pshaw! Which part of her love was sincere? Should we even call it love? She made her health as an excuse to trap Jun Su. She made him suffer greatly. But in the end she lets him go anyway. Darn it! Something about her giving him up at end is related to another thing I hate about humans. They always do the right thing at the END. They try to set everything straight when it is too late and when the damage is done. They never gave the two a chance to be with each other. They never did. Until they found out she's nearing her death! It was so unfair for the two who loved each other since they were kids. Another one of the things I hate about humans that was shown in this series was the portrayal of Eun Su's real brother. He was a parasite, a thug, someone who thinks he's done something but has caused nothing but trouble. And finally, when Eun Su kept her illness a secret and for carrying the burden alone. Many people always do that and it does not do them any good. Everything was so realistic yet so fiction at the same time.

My favorite part of the series was when they were still teens. It showed how much Jun Su cared for Eun Su. The kind of protection he gives her. Anyone can see how much he loved her. And I think that's where their real love started (my little theory). Back when they were still siblings. They loved each other too much. It came up to the point where Jun Su kneeled in front of Shin Ae. My little theory was supported by this:

Jun Su is the prince of the school. It's only logical for him to receive many confessions, but he only answers that he already likes someone else. Even when Eun Su asks, he still didn't tell who she is and said it was a secret. And when Eun Su and her 'mom' were taking their bath, their mother asks if Eun Su likes someone and she jokingly answers, "Oppa". And finally, when Jun Su describes the girl he likes to Eun Su, she knew it was her he was describing. I know many will say it was only a joke but jokes are half true. They knew they liked each other even if it was subconsciously. I think they didn't see it before because they were blinded by their growing up as siblings.

^^;;… *sigh* my mood is really ruined! I tried posting with the feeling I had before, when I felt like writing in this blog but I COULDN'T!! sob sob… Aish… reading the fanfic SUICIDE NOTE is disturbing me! Haha… I can't  focus on writing. Oh well.

T.T… Anyways, I registered at Golf-Mike Thailand forums but my validation e-mail never came!! I'm sooooo sad!!! And tomorrow btw… is the first day of classes for the second semester. I'm a bit anxious and scared. Damn I hate first days. Haha

Currently listening to: I'm a Fool (Korean-Thai version) – Mike (this was from their One-by-one concert)

^^... I'm currently watching Hana Kimi Japanese Version Dorama. Right now I'm on episode.... *drumroll* 1! haha... I've only started watching. It's kinda cute~! I've been hearing about this a lot from friends but I didn't have the time to watch. ^^;;... but in reality, I've been too busy watching too much Golf-Mike! Hehe... I absolutely love Mike! Whatever he does just keeps me falling for him! Damn! He's reached my ultimate idol level in about a week's time! >_<...

ABSOLUTE IDOL LIST: (According to date of order)
1. Kazama Shunsuke (JE / Japanese)
2. Kim Jae Joong (TVXQ / Korean)
3. Kim Hee Chul (Super Junior / Korean)
4. Hongo Kanata (Actor / Japanese)
5. Pirath Nitipaisalkul ( Golf-Mike / Thai)

IDOL LIST:
Ikuta Toma
Kim Jun Su
Shim Chang Min
Kamenashi Kazuya
Akanishi Jin
Taguchi Junnosuke
Ueda Tatsuya
Nakamaru Yuichi
Lee Teuk
Yeh Sung
Kim Ki Bum
Lee Hyuk Jae
Lee Dong Hae
Choi Si Won
Park Sung Min
Kyu Hyun
Masaki Aiba
Matsumoto Jun
Matsuda Shota
Lee Jun Ki
Zhou Yu Min
Kazunari Ninomiya
Kim Jung Hoon
Hiroki Aiba
Matsuyama Ken'ichi
Hwan Hee
Yamashita Shoon
Chiba Ryohei
Tachibana Keita
Ogata Ryuichi

^^;;... it's not a very long list.... I'm very picky with my idols. Uwwa... Hana Kimi is soo funny! It's kinda full of nonsense but what do I care? I enjoy it! And Toma's like a retard~ (mind you, it's not an insult)

Imageshack is Ok, but, it doesn't properly work on my computer. Whenever I try to upload a pic, the page just says, "The page cannot be displayed" and before I can successfully upload one, it must've taken me at least 6 times to do it! >_<... talk about patient problems.

^-^... also, is there any good videohosting site out there? Where I can put up videos for download? I'm considering 4share or mediafire. But I'm not really sure myself. If anyone knows something... imagehost or videohost.... please~~ tell me!!

XD.... finally I found someone who can make a Kazama Shunsuke layout! My dream of creating a website about him will now be a mere step away! XD.... my only problem now is to find a good domain.

It's already the sem break! WoOt~ But I still have 3 exams coming up. =_=... weird ne? haha... anyhoots... once the 2 is over, I'm free to post pics and update everything.... like my long forgotten fanfictions. XD... I'm planning to also create a fanfic about Young Woong Jae Joong. A comedy romance fic and a mystery fiction romace fic. Which is better??

>_>... why does my dad need to be so damn strict? It's not like I'm not studying or anything... Is there a problem with my sister and me using the computer for leisure stuffs? I know college is important and everything, but, I don't need to be all crazy about it. >_<... I don't need to be a studying robot to get good grades! ~_~.... last night, he even threatened to disconnect the internet... T_T

Btw... the imagehosting site i used isn't working anymore so I have to find a new one! gomen ne!