Haiz… this computer hates me. This is the fourth time I've tried posting! But it uses different techniques to overcome me. I am seriously losing all hope of being able to post and I'm getting extremely pissed off. My mood is ruined sooooooo much! First, I tried to post some Mike pics but something I can't explain happened and everything I've worked hard for suddenly vanished. Next, I've been trying to post about finally being able to finish watching Endless Love Autumn Fairytale. What the story was to me and what are the things I love, not to mention hate, about it and everything else.

Anyways, I can't give up can't I? This is my blog after all. Ok, so back to what this post is supposed to be about.

Finally! My mom and I finally finished watching the first installment of the Endless Love series. My mom has developed a serious crush with the actor who played Yoon Jun Su. ^^;;… I'm very forgetful so I cannot remember his name without looking it up at wikipedia. But, since I am nearly at my boiling point because of this (*&^*& computer… I won't look it up anymore.

I loved the story so much. It was very sad and tragic. It was something; no man could ever go through. And if it happened in real life, I would totally give my respects to the 2 people who have been deprived of their love for each other. Know something? This story portrays the things I hate about humans. The first was Shin Ae's jealousy for Eun Su and for being such an ingrate to the mother that raised her, who gave her the best she could. Second was Jun Su's father for always thinking ONLY about the people who are in their bloodline. He always disregarded Eun Su's feelings or what might happen to her if he does this and that. Third was Yumi's clingy-ness. She knew she never had a chance. She knew who he liked. And she knew she could never make him happy. She disregarded Jun Su's happiness for hers. She didn't care about him one bit. I hated it when she asked Jun Su to not forget her "sincere" love for him. Pshaw! Which part of her love was sincere? Should we even call it love? She made her health as an excuse to trap Jun Su. She made him suffer greatly. But in the end she lets him go anyway. Darn it! Something about her giving him up at end is related to another thing I hate about humans. They always do the right thing at the END. They try to set everything straight when it is too late and when the damage is done. They never gave the two a chance to be with each other. They never did. Until they found out she's nearing her death! It was so unfair for the two who loved each other since they were kids. Another one of the things I hate about humans that was shown in this series was the portrayal of Eun Su's real brother. He was a parasite, a thug, someone who thinks he's done something but has caused nothing but trouble. And finally, when Eun Su kept her illness a secret and for carrying the burden alone. Many people always do that and it does not do them any good. Everything was so realistic yet so fiction at the same time.

My favorite part of the series was when they were still teens. It showed how much Jun Su cared for Eun Su. The kind of protection he gives her. Anyone can see how much he loved her. And I think that's where their real love started (my little theory). Back when they were still siblings. They loved each other too much. It came up to the point where Jun Su kneeled in front of Shin Ae. My little theory was supported by this:

Jun Su is the prince of the school. It's only logical for him to receive many confessions, but he only answers that he already likes someone else. Even when Eun Su asks, he still didn't tell who she is and said it was a secret. And when Eun Su and her 'mom' were taking their bath, their mother asks if Eun Su likes someone and she jokingly answers, "Oppa". And finally, when Jun Su describes the girl he likes to Eun Su, she knew it was her he was describing. I know many will say it was only a joke but jokes are half true. They knew they liked each other even if it was subconsciously. I think they didn't see it before because they were blinded by their growing up as siblings.

^^;;… *sigh* my mood is really ruined! I tried posting with the feeling I had before, when I felt like writing in this blog but I COULDN'T!! sob sob… Aish… reading the fanfic SUICIDE NOTE is disturbing me! Haha… I can't  focus on writing. Oh well.

T.T… Anyways, I registered at Golf-Mike Thailand forums but my validation e-mail never came!! I'm sooooo sad!!! And tomorrow btw… is the first day of classes for the second semester. I'm a bit anxious and scared. Damn I hate first days. Haha

Currently listening to: I'm a Fool (Korean-Thai version) – Mike (this was from their One-by-one concert)